In
the sacred history of Beloved Adi Da's Teaching
Work, July 9, 1979, is recorded as the date
when Red Sitting Man, the sacred fire site
on a hillside above the Mountain Of Attention
Sanctuary, was consecrated as a holy site.
It was an evening I will never forget because
it was the beginning of my real intimacy with
Adi Da as the Divine Person.
1979
was the year we began sacramental worship
of Beloved Adi Da. The fire that night at
Red Sitting Man was our first sacred
fire. It was most memorable, however,
because Beloved Adi Da attended the occasion.
In the evening, a small group of devotees
accompanied Adi Da up the narrow, steep path
that leads to the fire site. I walked behind
Him to escort and serve Him during the ceremony.
We rounded a bend in the path, and, beyond
a large lone pine tree, I saw Red Sitting
Man. The site was awesome in the twilight,
a wide trough etched by Nature out of the
stark white stone of the hillside. The fire
pit lay at the foot of the trough. Above,
the stone rose to a slightly flattened mound
— Avatar Adi Da's seat.
Adi
Da Walked to His seat above the fire and sat
down. Those in attendance sat on either side
of Him in a "U" around the fire pit.
From
the moment the fire was lighted, Beloved Adi
Da did not move for perhaps an hour and a
half. He sat upright in a perfect lotus posture.
He wore a red cap, a yellow shawl, and blue
cotton pants. As it grew darker, the colors
of His clothing faded, and He became only
a silhouette against the moonlit sky, but
His Face reflected the glow from the fire.
His Open Eyes reflected the flames. I gazed
at Him almost constantly throughout the entire
occasion and I never saw Him blink. He simply
sat and stared into the fire with complete
stillness and intensity.
For
a while I sat looking from Adi Da's glowing
Face to the fire beneath us. As I sat there
in His Company, I became aware of the world
in a totally new way, a way I had never noticed
before. It was as though there was a "hole
in the universe," as Adi Da describes it,
through the world itself, and on the other
side was the Great Being, the Great One.
This
One was Revealed to me that evening as a Person,
a Great Personality, something that tangible,
that present, that conscious. It is Consciousness
Itself. Suddenly I knew and understood so
many things Adi Da had Spoken about. This
was the Prior Condition. It was the Radiant
Divine Being. I knew It as the Divine Person.
Throughout His Teaching Word Adi Da refers
to this One as the Divine Person, as a Personality.
In an Essay from The Enlightenment of
the Whole Body, Adi Da Says:
There
is only One Person. That Person is
not separate from any thing or any
one. That Person is the Identity of
the God and of the World which people
contemplate in their conventional
or separated psycho-physical condition.
That Person is not only the Identity
of God, and of the World—God and World
representing the Self, or Mind, and
the Body of the Divine Person— but
that Person is also the Identity of
every human individual, and of Man,
and of all species of experiential
existence.
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I
looked off into the distance at the mountains
across the valley and I saw them in a new
way. I knew that they were not "real" in the
sense I had always thought them to be. I knew
that somehow they were a part of this Divine
Person. And I looked at Adi Da, so beautiful
in the moonlight, the flesh in His Face reddened
by the glow of the fire, and I knew that like
the mountains He was not "real" in the way
I had thought Him to be.
I
considered all the experiences I had ever
been given in Adi Da's Company. Since coming
to Him, I had known every possible kind of
experience, every possible kind of Spiritual
experience and had always thought that these
experiences — particularly the "Spiritual"
ones — had something to do with Spiritual
life, and often that they were Spiritual
life. But I saw, as Adi Da describes, that
all of these experiences, all of these highs
and lows, all of these seekings for relief,
all of these risings and blisses were only
the experiential play of the body-mind. But
as I felt this Divine Being in Adi Da's Company,
the world was transcended and all experience
was transcended and I knew that experience
made utterly no difference.
In
The Hymn Of The True Heart-Master,
Adi Da has Written:
Experiences,
visions, sounds, lights, conditional
energies, fascinating things, and
all conditional knowing, within and
without, are not Ultimate "Knowledge"
(or Free Realization) at all. Therefore,
I bow down to the One Who is always
already Established in the Mindless
Mood of the Self-Existing and Self-Radiant
Transcendental Divine Being. [verse
63]
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I
will never forget that night. I knew that
I had experienced Adi Da's Blessing Transmission.
About
a year later another experience with Bhagavan
deepened my understanding of this Divine One.
One afternoon Adi Da was lying on a couch
in His quarters at Tumomama Sanctuary in Hawaii.
I sat on the couch with another devotee and
massaged His calves and knees, putting all
my energy into the task. I began to feel the
familiar sense of the Divine Person and simultaneously
the sense of attention in the right side of
the heart that always accompanies that intuition
in me.
Adi
Da lay quietly on the couch. As I massaged
His leg and felt the Divine Being, I looked
down at Adi Da's Face, and it suddenly became
overwhelmingly clear to me that He is that
Divine Being, that there is no difference
between Him and the Divine Person, between
Him and utter transcendence of this world.
I knew that He is the window, the hole in
the universe, and I knew that His very flesh,
even the toenails of His feet as I massaged
them, are the form of the Divine Being manifest
in this world. I knew He is Prasad — the Divine
Gift — and absolutely Divine, and that He
Transmits this Power by His mere existence.
Just as on the night at Red Sitting Man, I
knew that Adi Da does not have to be active.
He does not have to look at me. He does not
have to speak to me. He does not have to deal
with me or Teach me or Instruct me or do anything
to me. I knew He is merely That.
On
another occasion at the Mountain Of Attention,
on a summer evening in 1982, a group of devotees
were gathered in Beloved Adi Da's quarters
at His residence. As we sat around Him, we
formed a mandala [a circle] with Adi
Da at the center.
Adi
Da described the Cosmic Mandala that night
for the first time. He described the White
Star in the center of the Mandala, which is
the reflection of the Divine Domain. As He
Talked, I began to see White Light emanating
from Him, and very soon the room was filled
with White Light. He became a White Being.
I saw this dramatic change not in any ordinary
visual sense, for I could still see His bodily
Form, but with some subtler vision. And again
I felt Him profoundly to be the hole in the
universe.
Adi
Da ended His Talk and sat with us in meditation.
Not only could I see Him again in His Divine
Form as the world seemed to dissolve around
me and everyone in the room was flooded with
this White Light, but I saw also that Adi
Da Transmits this White Light, that it is
something He does. On this occasion of meditation,
as He allowed us to witness Him becoming active
in this way, He became a very forceful, powerful,
and undeniable Transmitter of His Own Divine
Condition.
I
could "see" the Light emanating from Him to
the entire room. The Light did not come from
His flesh Form. It came through the hole in
the universe that He Is. It came from the
Divine Domain. I recognized that this was
His unique Transmission.
Since
that time, Beloved Adi Da has Revealed Himself
to me in deeper ways as the Divine Person.
But it is still the same fundamental intuition
I knew in 1979 at Red Sitting Man. And I know
it is only Adi Da, the Divine Person, that
we will come to Realize.
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Annie
Rogers
with Adi Da Samraj
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sacred
fire — Adi Da's devotees perform sacred
fire ceremonies (derived in part from ancient
Vedic ritual fires) as a form of expressive
bodily worship of Avatar Adi Da. The fire
ceremony is a tangible representation of the
living relationship to the Divine — the sacrifice
required in true Spiritual practice and the
constant surrender of all objective attachments
into the "Fire" of Radiant Divine Consciousness.
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